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Friday, January 8, 2016

bravery not included

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I have a tagline on this blog- Forever stepping innocently into the offensive without a thought or a clue. Accepting who we really are and then being honest about ourselves to each other is something I like to call 'brazenly stupid'. As I have had to learn how to interact with others, others must also learn to interact with me. We each have our behavior boundaries and tolerances on social medias. I blog so I don't have to go into lengthy explanations on twitter, or redundant private messaging one by one saying the same thing over and over. Talking to people is not a game for me, it's a test, and sometimes I fail. Aspienado used to blow up bridges. I wasn't joking about that. Sometimes it's all I can do not to kill people for no reason. ~metaphorically~

I'm not on social media for friends, I've said this how many times? Yet, I'm always grateful to find there are people out there who seem to keep wanting to be my friend in spite of myself. I came back out public for very different reasons, with an agenda and goals. Friends are a nice side effect. Last night knocked me over, and once again I remind myself that claws hurt people and kindness is logical. However, I must find a way to remain true to myself by being more honest with my friends. If friends are determined to stick with me, it's my job to teach them how to duck and dodge my personality flaws, but their job is to learn that duck and dodge. You stick with me, you'll either get really good or really banged up emotionally, and not necessarily the good kind of banged.


I have shared in triplicate my personality, my problems, my challenges, my addiction history, more about me than I'll ever know about another single person I know on the internet. It's all out here. I've even got links to legal documents on how to handle someone like me. I've confessed to being monitored by both a psychologist and a psychiatrist how many times. No one who has read even a tenth of my blog should be surprised at having difficulty with me on occasion.

This being said, good morning, I hope your weekends coming up will be lovely, even if you have to work at a sucky job, may your coffee (or whatever) never fail you, and your socks never sag into your shoes, because that really is more annoying than anything.

Ok, moving forward. I must continue to strive to be both fair and honest. Yes, I found her. The light in my eyes, the song in my heart, the wind beneath my wings, as it were. The One. My aspie whisperer. I will be ever so much better for everyone else because of her. And I'm not going away off the medias if you don't see me, I'm just refreshing my soul and getting ready for the next big WORK! FOCUS!!! I know it'll seem like I'm gone if I'm not on the twitters as much, but you guys know I'll show back up, and you can always look on Pinky blog to see what I'm doing. While some might scoff at this, others hang on in the dark, and I know this is important, because I hung on in the dark for so many years myself. We can do this.

This song can be purchased here. More info about the music artist here. You can also like her page on facebook.