2014- the good, the bad, and the ugly

Last year's personal life assessment- I made 5 resolutions. Got a handle on overbuying produce *check*, paperwork never got done BRZAP, got a new dresser for excellent sox organization ~gold star~, stayed public, lol *check*, but no, nothing got published yet BRZAP.

So that's what, two regrets? Hang on, lemme dig up my regret pix.

  

That was superficial. Real life assessment-

My house is cleaner than it's been in ten years, thanks to Elfnado.

My paperwork is actually organized enough now to file, if I'd just spend a couple of days grinding through it, thanks to moving everything around to get a new dresser in.

I'm actually keeping up with my family in real time and not wisping away on a couch this winter in spite of fibro and auto flares and viruses, thanks to another huge breakthrough in my diet, notably another allergy blowing up on me.

I'm. still. writing. I haven't disappeared (sure wanted to for about a week), I'm dealing with my angst and depression head on every day, I'm communicating well with my family (aspienado score), I've been 'turned loose' by psychologist, neurologist, and physical therapy, and my discipline to writing, research, and making notes every single day is still solid.

I will admit that I've entertained the notion of quitting. What keeps me hacking away at this is an undertow of still being extremely pissed. There are a few events in my past that still feel very thorny, which is why I came back in the first place. I'm not sure I'd call what I'm doing 'revenge', but it's certainly been a subtle motivator under everything I do.


MOVING FORWARD.

I've been thinking about 2015 resolutions. I'll make only 3.

Chocolate. I refrained from all chocolate in every form for 105 days in 2014 and noticed I stopped turning to comfort food whenever I felt whiny. I haven't put on any weight at all this whole year, even dropped 5 pounds and have kept it off no matter what else I eat. Since I'm not having a problem missing chocolate, I think my first resolution for 2015 is to keep staying away from chocolate. Let's see what a year of no chocolate brings me. I officially redacted this one on 1-15-15.

Sox. I have over 100 pairs of sox. I don't intend to stop, no, but I do intend to restructure. Not sure how yet, or the direction this will take, but somehow this will be a Year Of Change for Pinky's sox.

Paperwork. I very seriously want to be earning enough money by the end of the year to pay someone to help me keep my paperwork straight. I'll reserve this resolution for jokes, unless something really does happen and it works. If it does, I'll make a DayBowBow vlog or something at the end of the year.

day bow bow

I might not have been paying attention when I was prepping coffee for this morning. *_O Little bit strong there.

This is why I'm so glad I moved my blog over to here so devices could see it. I have no idea why other browsers aren't logged, the total here accounts for less than a third of incoming. These charts are from stat counter, y'all need to install that on your blogs.

And the mobile stats break down into different ways your devices see the page, which is fun to click on. I'm learning a lot. I can also see stuff like this. I think the colorful charts are helping my brain absorb the coffee better.

We've got a burrito coming over to watch football with us while her mama enjoys football with friends. This is our chance to keep brainwashing her to the purple side.

Today we'll be snacking on BLTs with homegrown maters and I'm going to make our last batch of homemade ice cream for the season. I really hope I get a lot done today. Last couple days was like brain mush on antibiotic for ear and sinus infection, too wobbly to do much more than keep transferring files.

I've got the day bow bow song in my head. Let me spread the joy.