click for the Bunny Halloween wiki
bunnies and Halloween are not strangers
I think one of my sister's girls started that one years ago, not sure if it was around Easter or what else was going on, but it has stuck with us ever since and we say it a lot. :edit:Thisis the original source.
I love you more than bunnies.
Growing up in a family where hearing "I love you" didn't happen often enough around me, or was said more out of expectation or under trite circumstance, I went out of my way to change that with my family. It was hard, but once I got used to it, it started rolling off my tongue unbidden even to strangers, sometimes in very funny or awkward places. Oh, well, lol. Maybe someone needed it.
Last night's vivid dream was about bunnies. If we could see in bunny form what humans do to each other, maybe we could understand better. Like when someone's day gets crushed by an angry person flinging their emotions around, literally seeing a bunny stomped hard with a big boot and the painful squeal of death while eyes gouge and guts and brain spurt out. Or like if someone was all best of luck to someone else whose bunny was out in rough choppy water and you could see the bunny was literally drowning in front of you. Or like sending someone off to handle something with a you can do this, and there was a very sad bunny hiding deep in a backpack or glove box. Sad bunnies would be pretty hard to push out there into the big cruel world. We'd want to cuddle them and make them feel safe.
click for tons of clip art
Today is brought to you by the letters K and MC and the number every 30-60 seconds. Kaspersky is a big bad biatch, and I really love it. Kaspersky on Windows 10 is a whiny brat. I've used Kaspersky for years, so I'm pretty good at figuring out the drags I go through and adjusting them. Our latest adventure together ramped up when I updated my minecraft game server downloads and started getting kicked off for java.io.IOException every 30-60 seconds. Kaspersky doesn't like java and tells on java all the time, so I'm well aware of the crap on my end. I fiddled around with adding exceptions and told it to ignore any more java, and at least I was able to log on. I spent an entire day relogging nearly every minute. I'm a machine, I got a LOT done in between those kicks, like renovating my player shop and farming up another $75K or so. But I got really tired of it, so I finally took the whole safe money off. I don't know what is going on with the latest Kaspersky updates and the latest W10 and Chrome duels, but I had to take safe money off just to be able to stay on a game server on a top of the line gaming laptop. Have I mentioned I'm about ready for the competition to stop? That it's time for the total integration and smooth interface of internet? That I'm ready for the brain chip? Sheesh.
If the only interesting thing in that last paragraph was 'game server', my latest post is here.
click to get to official server site
After a sweet lull in my personal allergy hell (got through ragweed season on half the usual amount of antihistamines), everything flared super big yesterday and I had to slam extra zyrtec, double the benadryl I usually take when needed, pepcid (H2 blocker) and after 30 minutes decided I'd better get on that pred burst or wind up in clinic for shots, so I'm on prednisone for 3 more days. Between our basement getting dredged for yard sale (went fantastic, yay!) and the leaf mold from autumn starting (official allergy to leaf mold), and all of it going in and out the door past me, my histamine levels were probably already popping, and then all it took from there was one of my old pain pills (some meds are well known for spiking normal histamine levels even though there is no allergy to the med), and bam. I'm not supposed to be taking those any more anyway and had gotten down to one a week, and yesterday's 30 minutes of headache relief got blitzed by my uvula turning into a lawn sprinkler. You don't mess around with that kind of reaction. Took nearly an hour to get that under control, but much better now. Guess I'd better go back to twice a day zyrtec through autumn peak. Maybe I can cut back down once we're past that.
SO. I'll be super watching my blood sugar next few days. If you're in diabetic hell with steroids for some reason, I wrote a post for that called Diabetes and Steroid Meds. If you need more, go here. I'm pretty good at this, fasting glucose was 78 this morning after yesterday's prednisone.
I think I'm getting better at cramming a lot of stuff into less space. 😋 Let's get out of here, I need breakfast and more game time. I didn't get on server for 6 whole days in a row last week, and I've been extra special good lately, so I'm going to PLAY. I don't think some of the kids nowadays appreciate that my gen inventing playing. All your tech and industries- my peeps made 4 u. Let's go enjoy something today.
I used to call this stuff tech meth. Sometimes I get sucked in and don't climb back out for hours. I documented this morning's trail so I can come back later and jump back down the hole if I want to. If you're not into techanese, scroll down to the big pink pumpkin.
So Cortana (like the chat Siri for Windows 10) let me know Kaspersky was still pouting about Java plug ins, so I thought Ok, it's 4:30 a.m., I have some coffee in me, let's do this. Because I've been ignoring it since January when I first got Jawn going, and then complaining when I can't see my own plugins on my blogs.
First I had Kaspersky show me exactly what it was pouting about, and of course, who wants something like not-a-virus:HEUR:AdWare.Win32.InstallMonster.gen in their computer, right? I mean, that sounds awfully weird and vague in an "ignore me because I'm sneaking in" kind of way. I did a search and ran into this Kaspersky Lab Forum, which wasn't very helpful but showed me that it's a common question.
* The quote not a virus comes from Kaspersky. It means that ist is not a dangerous virus. It could be a unknown program. * It could contain malware. But it doesn't have to be.
Not exactly helpful. I refined my search a little ("Kaspersky won't let me update Java in Windows 10") and came across the same question in a forum at superuser.com, and the suggestion there was to load the file to virustotal.com to find out for sure exactly what the file even is. Once the file was uploaded and scanned, I could see 'analysis', 'file detail', and 'additional information'. Most of you will think that is gobbledygook, but in the 'file detail' part I can see a pretty green checkmark by Signature Verification, so it's a legitimate file that's been legally documented the way legit business is supposed to do (pretty sure that's what a verification check mark is supposed to mean). Also, I can see things like Product, File Version, and Description. I thought Ok, let's plug 'inno setup' into a search bar, and clicking on a couple things very quickly let me see that Microsoft has contracted with Inno Setup.
I've been wondering why Jawn wasn't allowing Java to update, now I know. Had to add those .exe files to exclusions, which is really easy now, just a couple of clicks in the Kaspersky pout window and now Cortana will leave me alone. But wait a second... I still had doubts. Melepot? Did they buy Inno Setup out or something?
EMSIsoft thinks the plugins are malware across the board, but I think they're just freaking people out to sell their own product. Everything else I can find out about Melepot is in other languages, like Romanian.
How to Fix 'Java Plugins' Errors Since this looks like a Norton foot in the door, I'm not going to further aggravate Kaspersky by running it.
Back to virustotal.com. It's sitting there with it's little arms folded insisting that "The file being studied is a Portable Executable file! More specifically, it is a Win32 EXE file for the Windows GUI subsystem."
Well, maybe Cortana will let me know again sometime that Kaspersky is pouting or something. In the meantime, an hour has gone by and my eyes are already twirly before the sun has even come up. I just removed all the problems from exclusions and walked off from Kaspersky for a bit.
I know a lot of people turn off Java in their systems so trackers can't exchange info, I see this all the time in site tracker FAQ stuff, from simple user trackers to google analytics. Not having working Java isn't the worst thing in the world, but I'm on a gaming laptop, so I'm not sure if not allowing Java is holding other stuff back. Jawn can't seem to update my drivers, either, so...
click for cool pinterest board
Yes, too early to actually care. I got a new popcorn popper! Click the pic to go where I got mine. There are other styles to choose from, too.
Today I'm going to make popcorn balls, yay! I won't go too crazy like what I see on pinterest, but I might roll them in Halloween sprinkles for fun. I don't eat them myself, but Papa and Bunny will have fun eating them this weekend, and I can send a few home with her.
I don't see this addressed much anywhere, but one of the hardest things on a manic euphoric depression cycle is sedation. I can't even begin to describe how far that anesthesia threw me off and how difficult this week has been just getting back my normal brain rhythm. My memory glitching came back full force for a few days, my aspienado shutdowns have been accentuated, and I'm barely covering for somewhat my kind of normal. I'm ok, just thrown off my regular coping strategies, but I can definitely vouch for coming back from that amount of sedation being a real blow to people who trigger easily for suicidal thoughts, and I've been craving vicodin again like the old days. That's pretty much how I know it's a brain chemical thing and not 'just' feeling gloomy. And the really big red flag was not being able to get myself distracted into minecraft. Best plan was just spread out on the medias like a big float device and keep watching TV, which seems to be working out pretty well. I got a little mean on a couple of people, but I think overall I'm coming through this one in fairly good shape. It would've been very easy to snivel all over one or two people and pull them into my dark hole, but I'm really glad I didn't. I felt especially destructive this week behind all the fun.
Now I get alerts for every single web beacon that doesn't get blocked. Thanx, Kaspersky. All this means is every time a browser rotates a news window through a slideshow, I get a notification that a web beacon was allowed to interact with my hard drive. Life was so much easier when we just didn't know.
Here, have some cute blown out vein pix. I don't bruise easily and this very rarely happens, so it's been a little fascinating to me. I'll keep them small so they aren't too gross, but that might not stop mobile from pulling them up full screen. Close your eyes.
Yes, I know, I've seen worse, too. Hugs to everyone who gets poked a lot. I've been a pincushion for years, they can feel the scar tissue all over my arms when they're looking for good veins.
I'm pulling this here in case there are other Matrix super freaks like me. A twitter link rolled through claiming their write up was still 'trending', I followed to an old blog post with nearly no comments, so I jumped in and this was my response (ignore the 'awaiting', it got approved). I tend to be super yappy online on my quieter real life days and used to get tangled up in lengthy discussions over nothing just to be ornery, but I'm getting way better at keeping things brief or not commenting at all. If anyone reading this enjoys philosophical debate and would like to argue with me, there you go. But do it over there, not here.
Personally, I'm not fond of writers using other people's entertainment creations to push their own ideologies, but The Matrix makes it all fun.
Still dealing with flutters. It's been 3 weeks since I started tapering atenolol. All the weird stuff, purportedly (from patients in forums), lasts 2-3 weeks. They're not bad and don't last long, usually settle real quick into mild SVT and in a few minutes everything is fine again. I really should have stopped coffee this month, can tell it's not helping...
I'm still working on my 'unsticky' list from yesterday.
Youtube is recommending vids from an account named definitely -evil. I'll leave you guys to it. I've gotta go walk around some more with this headache, maybe work on my list some more.
Fed @bonenado BIG BREAKFAST in between his zipping around in high speed because his fantasy baseball team (baseball has been on the TV for 2 hours already this morning), 4 fantasy football teams, two survivor pools, a national pick the winning team for a vacation to Hawaii lotto, and still needing to activate RedZone (omg & get a free week!), and crunch time because we don't know if Bunny is coming over- check
I love autumn. Every weekend is like a party/holiday. This clicks out to a nice wallpaper/theme site.
Last night was a riot. The movie is totally worth going back to just to watch the closed captioning, which is so way off that between the gang snarking in chat and the crazy weird translation gaffes, I couldn't stop laughing the whole time. I've got this set as my wallpaper now. Click for full size.
I'm not going to be able to be a sitting down person at all today, so this is it, if you don't see me on the twitters or elsewhere, I just gotta keep moving.
Yesterday was pretty epic, wasn't it? Biggest news was American Pharoah taking the Triple Crown.
And then there was the #SnarkStock2015 hashtag crawl. Click that link to the left to go to the hashtag feed and see way more pix with more SnarkAlecs in them. :edit: 6-8-15 There's a new page by @TonySolo where you can see all the pix now in one place, yay!
Plus we had Bunny from the break of dawn till nearly noon, so my day was pretty full.
It's been ages since I tweeted almost nonstop like that for nearly 12 hours. Remember when I used to tweet around the clock every single day? My phone croaking back into the Dark Ages finally broke me of that. Oh, well. And now my laptop is going geriatric. Average lifespan of a laptop is said to be 2-3 years, but this one is 5 now, and I'm pretty sure I'll still be using it in another 5, even if I get a new laptop later this year. I'm still using a 25 year old portable CD player.
I don't remember whether I shared that I discovered the Adult Wednesday Addams channel on youtube. At first I thought oh no, someone porned her up, but it's Grown Up Wednesday, and it's pretty cool. The vids keep getting removed while she lobbies for permission to use the character, but here are a handful of rescues from devoted fans who keep loyally reloading them.
AND, omg, there is an Allehandro Sherlock, erroneously misspelled as awkwardly as Pharoah. Too bad it was also awkwardly made and cut off halfway through the song, because the parts that did get done hint at some actual thoughtfulness and creativity. :edit: 6-8-15 For someone who didn't give a crap about that vid sitting around not getting views, it sure got taken down fast after someone actually linked it (moi). Well, guess who does vid rescues. I liked it. I hope one day it gets finished.
And that was the second time I had to reboot because opening youtube keeps knocking my Kaspersky off for some reason this last week, and since rebooting turns it back on, I'm not going to freak out and mess with settings. I'm sure someone out there is feverishly working on fixing something and then there'll be an automatic update of some kind.
I'll be so glad when everything is synced into one big universal thing and the interface probs go away. I know that's anti-capitalist of me to say, but I see no other way to stop this madness. I still envision a futuristic Star Trek type Federation, so I'm on board. (Gasps break out among some of my friends and family. I'm a sellout. Scifi has corrupted me.) Yes, I know it'll escalate, but I blame Admiral Marcus. Do you ever wonder if this is what it feels like working feverishly getting an update ready for laptop/internet interface problems?
Ok, j/k, I didn't neck pinch him. My carpal tunnel is too bad for that now.
Had a chat last night with the nicest Best Buy / Geek Squad account support EVER. One of these days someone will figure out a way for us all to have everything centrally tied to just one ID so I don't have to go chasing down how in the world I have two packages of the same thing on autopay on two different dates between two different entities, all based on one of my accounts being under an old email address and therefore not showing up online in any form for me to see even though my equipment and credit ID cross the line into both accounts. One little ancient email address prevented associates from helping me with this problem for nearly 3 years. This genius woman last night was patient enough to dig around a little and help me sort out what was actually going on.
How can this even happen? Well, thanks to BLOGGING, I can go back and look up what was going on the day of the replica purchase. Apparently in September 2012 I dragged my laptop into a Geek Squad line sporting a nasty pain level in my neck during that ASTYM therapy and on antibiotic for something that was making me feel very ill. The next day I picked the laptop up from routine maintenance. I vaguely recall trying to ask questions back then about my Torch browser having fits over Google hangouts and must have gotten a big hype sales push from a yappy caffeine addict who couldn't see I was already paying for Kaspersky and sold me a protection plan bundle that included it, and I apparently plunked down my debit card. Ever since then I've been trying to untangle what in the world happened, to no avail. Last night a very kind person with apparently a mountain of experience excavated all my info, sorted it, assessed it, and helped me understand it.
Told you guys my brain was glitchy for awhile. 2012 seems to have all kinds of mysteries tucked away for me to find.
That was tedious. I'm really good at filling space with tedious material. Years of blogs...
Heh, guess I'm not always that yappy. On this day in 2007 all I posted was pictures. Here is one of them.
One line from 2008.
Someone found my Duck Lords site through a search for 'blow my load vids'.... Aaaaaaaaahh!!!!! *gag*
A short paragraph from 2009.
I really don't know how Scott turned out so calm and collected with all that crazy DNA from his parents. I always thought he was so spontaneous and hyper and stuff. He's a marble statue compared to what blew through my house for 20 minutes this afternoon.
Fun stuff from 2010.
Belmont Stakes this Saturday, woohoo! This is the shirt I'm getting.
Chickens could probably use a little watermelon in this heat. Spencer's occasional eggs are getting ginormous. Dooney is still plugging out little ones every day, pretty much saves the day so we don't run out. Macy should be laying nearly daily but for some reason has slowed down to about 2 a week. Jaizzy completely stopped several weeks ago when she got so sick, and Bean is Bean is Bean, just a weird little pet with mixed up hormones. Told Scott next time I buy more chicks (in some distant future), I'm sticking mostly to smaller breeds that are more consistent layers. Dooney seems to handle the weather changes better, seems overall more healthy all the time, less inclined to let every little thing bother her. Odd that she was the one bred to tolerate the stress of cage life, but she outdoes the others at freedom.
2011 was the big year that started changing everything when I found out I was diabetic.
So, I've broken the 200 barrier, which I haven't done in prolly 5 years, and that makes 38 pounds lost now. Two more pounds and I'll be where I was at when I turned 40. Weird factoid- I had put on 40 pounds since I was 40.
2012- THIS is the day that I made the decision to come back public again. That tiny sentence fragment represents one of the most hair-raising moments I've ever been through. Scott and I both assumed within a couple of microseconds that we wouldn't be living through it and braced for impact and nasty death. I still don't know how it didn't happen.
we just missed being in a nasty head on collision last night
2013- I'll never forget being on vacation when I got the news about Xanga. And I didn't yet know I am allergic to dogs.
Also found out we're in a pet friendly hotel. Being extended stay guests and hanging out the do not disturb sign, the air fresheners have worn off, and now this beautiful room in this really nice hotel smells like an old man with his cat and small dog used to live here. It's not nasty, but the litter box smell pervades, like a memory of days past. Over $16,000 has been raised for Xanga so far (I joined a couple of Xanga facebook groups), and there are hopes running through the little crowd of regulars that they can pull this off.
2014 and everything is public now. And Mom is still showing up in a lot of my dreams.
*wow* o_o My head was so full of stuff just getting out of bed at 6:15 that I had to log onto all my twitters and go through motions just to get some focus. The dreams about my mom are getting cool. Maybe she's joining me in having fun instead of all the fretting she used to do.
2015 (That's now!)
Nearly killed Scott last night. Let him live. For now...
If y'all aren't using Kaspersky to protect your operating systems and devices, you should be, (I'm not being paid to say this)
because the Win32/KipodToolsCby malware is really super determined to get into your system. It showed up in January and a warning about it was updated at the end of March. You could go through this trouble, or you can trust Kaspersky to catch it and let you remove it with one click and do a restart until MS gets another update fix up. MS killed it for awhile (keep your computer updates timely!), but apparently it's back, so whoever made this one is one slick little piece of snot.
In the meantime, James Kahn invited me to like his new movie page on facebook. I don't know if he's a Lexx fan, but he found me a long time ago on twitter, so of course I jump when he DMs, lol.
I'm trying to get sleepy again. I don't think 5 hours of sleep is going to cut it today. Tenth day since the power surge started and my brain finally doth protest at the thought of more work at 2 in the morning after slamming through 10,000+ words over and over.
A person in the state of hypomania might be immune to fear and doubt and have negligible social and sexual inhibition. People experiencing hypomania usually have a very strong sex drive. Hypomanic people are often the "life of the party". They may talk to strangers easily, offer solutions to problems, and find pleasure in small activities. Such advantages may render them unwilling to submit to treatment, especially when symptoms do not impair functioning.
Yeah, you can see why I enjoy it so much. Diagnosing Mixed State Bipolar Aspergers
So starting to feel sleepy again in this state kinda feels like I had a reverse lobotomy, everything's still all there, just the energy level is draining out now, so I need to find a video and go lay back down before @bonenado gets up and makes coffee.
:edit: I did a vid rescue for 'Paralyzer Sherlock MV' and it's the first rescue I've ever done that has been blocked worldwide, which means that just having it on my youtube even in private sets my account on a precipice. I'd like to remain in 'good standing', so I deleted it. Sorry about that. As long as I remain in good standing, I think I can keep what rescued vids I've got in unlisted and wait out the claims.
Someone found my Duck Lords site through a search for 'blow my load vids'.... Aaaaaaaaahh!!!!! *gag*
Nearly killed Scott last night. Let him live. For now...
