Here's proof that I still attempt a social life once in awhile outside of a minecraft server, lol. I'm going to link all these back to SyfyDesigns on general principal, but it was organized by @LisaMarieBowman from @LNMGang doing #LateNightMovie. You really have to be there, and I wish I were much more often. I miss this. If you want to check this movie out on youtube, you can link over from this tweet, and you should follow all of us on twitter while you're at it. 👍
I didn't get to watch anything like this growing up, and when I finally discovered it, I mashed it into my brain like candy. There's nothing funner than snarking old movies with friends.
Capillary disintegration is my mantra now.
At the beginning of the movie, the doctor told a patient he'd schedule an EKG the following day because she had hysterics, and of course she died, so I take it everyone with heart problems back in the day died waiting for EKGs and the cause of death would be hysterics. I can't let these things go.
It felt like watching a docudrama, really. I'm not quite sure how science was actually involved, but this is the gold standard.
Don't worry, Carol lives. I think we lost a few viewers between tech issues and noddings off.
I won't spoil the ending for you.
Trying to stay caught up on a couple TV shows and I have concerns-
Two seasons ago Rick would have picked that random baby up and plowed zombies and eaten bullets, this season is like he's in meth withdrawal.
Penguin is being a sucker and he's way too selfish for that and I'm cranky.
Tosh, I swear I had no idea 19 shows piled up, you know I love you, right.
I hope Luna Girl wins.
What the crap ARE Shopkins, anyway? They seem to be taking over my house.
That's my current life in a nutshell. Well, besides jumping on the opportunity to deep clean while the kiddos ran off to see relatives and have lots of fun and shopping and stuff.
I used to do little ad promos on Xanga before the big server move. I finally caved to Facebook shoving ad boost thingies in my face and tried it out. Was very surprised the Janika promo far outstripped the Lexxperience promo. I won't be doing it again any time soon, really don't need to be throwing my $$ around like that, but it was a fun experiment.
I've been getting 80-90-100 percents on my CPAP readouts, but last night was a bust, don't think I made it even 3 hours. Therapy on Friday musta caught up with me, kinda feel like I took a tumble down a big hill. Since I got chores caught up yesterday, I'm going back to bed for awhile. If I can't sleep, I'll be rewatching a bunch of old Strong Bad emails that are being loaded this last week.
Got our new routine down already. Bunny and mama get up after Papa leaves for work, and I do my running after they go to daycare and work. It's a temp gig and I'm enjoying it. It's challenging me to step up a little more, so once again I have motivation to conquer and thrive.
Been digging out another mountain in Mo Creatures, converting to multilevel pumpkin production (cash crop), kinda looks like a stacked parking garage. Going all the way to bedrock, nearly 2500 pumpkins planted so far, going to double that soon, pretty much turning over every single stone as I go. Smelting rakes in experience points, experience levels translate to triple enchanted armors, weapons, and tools, plus ores galore, so the patience pays off and other players think I'm rich.
As I mine and plant, I'm thinking lately about 'damage'. There are stats for 'damage dealt' and 'damage taken', but that's mostly for the players and the equipment. It doesn't show up for blocks. No matter how many times I break a dirt block, I can reuse it like brand new. It doesn't take damage. While I'm mining I inflict a sort of damage on all kinds of blocks, but once they pop out of place, they're fine. If I let my focus slip and slide off that block while I mine, pulling back in place starts over again. The block doesn't retain a damage level and then break more easily later.
People aren't like that, are they? People get broken, and the damage can be retained for a very long time. They don't just pop back into place. I'm finding it interesting that the kinds of people who deal out damage seem to expect that. It's like they can't understand or grasp that they're the problem inflicting the damage in the first place that they want to go away and not bother them.
I'm having lots of other thoughts, too, but even though I'm focusing on more #transparency in 2017, I need to be considerate because this isn't actually Pinky's stuff. It's other people's stuff, and it's their place to share or not share. But I will venture into enough #transparency to share that I'm not aware of any physical harm. The psychological scarring runs pretty deep, though, and it's been all I can do holding back. Janika has loads of experience levels in the darker realms, and you guys have been watching Pinky lightly splash out public pix for reasons. If this kiddo ever disappears, I've got a whole world looking out for her sweet little face. No one thinks that will really happen, but no one ever does, do they? Head games suck in a variety of ways. Fortunately (and very sadly), the couch seemed to be the bigger issue.
I know my blogs look a bit desolate because I don't encourage comments at all (and please just don't now too, thanx), but what you guys don't see is the private contact I get. I'm not fond of people building armies and pointing them in directions for group hate, and I've got a prime opportunity in my hands to do just that. It's a nice weapon to have if I need one. #transparency- Several people have actually offered to do my first husband in for me for free. I thank people for their concern, but some are serious and I really don't want to author that kind of history, knowhutImean? I have a feeling a whole lot more response would happen if anything ever happened to Bunny. Not a threat, just being #transparent about my social network being solid and if I ever unleash something very upsetting to public, it won't be to whine and hint.
Smite IV silver sword always at my side. I never leave home without it.
If levity is even possible this week after watching our daughter cry that hard...
Some days there is just nothing I can do and it just can't be helped, forced to abandon all intention otherwise and just cave. Pain management can reach extremes where all I can do is just go lay very still for awhile so one area will calm down and hope that is enough before another area drives me back into motion. When all else fails, thank goodness for youtube on my phone.
Since I don't share this part of coping, I thought it might be fun to share today's trail through some new vids popping up in my radar. I love seeing what other people are doing and creating, and this helps me focus outward so I don't wallow in depression and self inflicted passive aggressive displacing when it's simply just physically sucking and I need to take a break. The whole 'poor me' thing isn't my style, and it really does help to get lost in absorbing different things. So here we go.
Ok, so I probably shouldn't have clicked this one first, but I did. It hit a little close to home, but it's really well done.
This one is a little long but I really enjoyed it. I'm a Bunny Bennett fan.
Little bit dark for my current needs, but again, just really well done.
The whole time I watched this I kept wondering how long it took to make. The logistics kinda overtake the experience.
Finally sucked into this next one enough to forget the pain. Love these guys. I wanted that Pizz t-shirt so bad, and they stopped selling those. *wo* The store is back open... click --> All Types of Crazy Crap! I'm so excited I can hardly stand it. Here's that shirt!!! O_O A Trogdor mug *gasp* Now see, my bad day is all our gains. I'm so happy I'm floating. 😍
Lmao, this is too funny.
I wish Lexx fans would get this obsessed.
Oopsie, slipped off into melancholy. Better watch that. Really love this vid, tho.
THIS. Very well done, brava.
And this is the point where I was about to be driven back into motion, the hard grind, as I fondly call it. Now I'm grinding through doing busy work sharing this to help the day pass, but this is the coolest thing ever. #transparency I've shared about my synesthesia lending to deep thought through my childhood into things revealed years later by chaos science, like fractals and many other kinds of patterns that rise out of chaos. Among my deeper thoughts were obsessions with sounds, and the idea that vibrations could be 'captured', harnessed, created. I was elated when electronic and digital musics were born, but this guy goes back to my very young age obsession with finding a way via thought experiment for one person to trap and guide all the creation into one object. Except this person really does it. I truly admire this level of obsessive passion.
I haven't said this yet about why I went silent during and after the 4th Sherlock season when you all know how obsessed I've been with the show. There are moments when I am this close to Eurus, where I can step out, disconnect, and not feel. I did it a lot growing up. I killed not just my own pets, but my siblings'. I chased my sister around with body parts and bits of skull. I played with dismembered limbs, disemboweled tissues and organs. I watched my dad kill puppies and cats and other animals of all kinds without any tears at all or thought for other people's feelings. When I see Eurus, I see that part of me that I was able to grow past growing up, and it wasn't easy. When I say I dissociated and developed other mes to be able to interact, I'm not joking around. When I reveal that it has taken me most of my life to learn compassion and kindness and how to care about other people's feelings, I'm not lying. I was telling the truth when I said the reason I reached out to learn all this is because I don't want to die alone.
"Alone is what I have, alone protects me." That was true growing up. It's not true grown up. That is what I see Sherlock learning at the end when he plays violins with Eurus. He makes sure she is not alone even after she has dissociated beyond any other interaction.
K, today is tough and I've gotta keep moving. See ya.
Random realm shot. Kai interrogating the prisoners.
+_+ #coffee Blogger doesn't have a coffee moji. #fail
Aeo's new digs.
I'm having to wipe and reload all my minecraft stuff, so I'm going through a folder search and seize blitz first. I think the saving the saves thing got a little out of hand last time I did that. My folders seem to have had babies or something.
Got a little carried away playing with mushrooms.
This one turned into a 3 story apartment complex.
I should go back and find the finished structure sometime. It's even bigger than this.
:edit: I found it, yay! I'll probably eventually develop it into something cooler.
That mushroom complex is kinda near my mesa digs where we interrogated those prisoners for Kai's first woodland mansion map.
I can't even remember which world this is from. I found a box canyon and played with lava and water source placing.
Yeah, went on a lava binge.
Anyway, I've been on CPAP only one week and already I've hit a 99 and 100 twice on myAir resmed scoring, and my blood pressure is already coming down. I'm 5 days into the gabapentin dose increase and already having an easier time with the overall nerve chatter. Still waiting for my brain to catch up. Kind of coasting through a partial shut down spaz and not terribly cognizant of the world at large.
So today is the perfect day to do mundane things like go through folders and empty my recycle bin and piddle around on a realm, get lost in random searches...
Srsly, that's the last of using the same title every single day all month. What a drag. I'll never do that again. So glad I made it 30 instead of 31.
Ok, this week's suckage in a quick power point.
Tonsil day. The worst part was surgery being moved twice out of the blue around holidays. Bunny's mama had it so perfectly set up on the 15th and everyone in place for backup help, that got moved last minute to the 28th, so everything was rearranged and tightly squeezed into place, and then 2 days before surgery they called back and it had been moved to 6 hours later, so all new plans had to be put into place for keeping a hyper 3 year old from going into super cranky calorie deficit through the day, which involved parents losing lots of sleep keeping her up, and this on top of one having developed a severe sinus infection over holidays and another an abscessed tooth and not being able to get off work, and you know what kind of fun it is getting appointments into anything around holidays. Four adults, one child, a tonsillectomy that went super fantastic, and we all feel like we've run a marathon.
Sleep study. While I'm thrilled that the follow up got bumped up to a great weather week instead of being at the end of January with possible driving in very inclement weather in the dark, it came hot on the heels out of the blue right after Bunny's tonsillectomy. Right. After. That very night. Extra trips into town blahblahblah. I can't begin to describe the headache I've walked around with all day. But hey, I slept great.
IF the world will stop moving abruptly out from under my feet, I'm hoping to get something special DONE by the time the ball drops.
Tomorrow we are driving halfway across the state for an epic meetup and I'm very excited. That is all you get. Because of that, I'm posting this a few hours early, like handing in my homework ahead of time. I'll be too excited to focus, and I'll need to get ready and then be on the road for awhile.
Unrelated end of year stat report- Pinky blog averages 8 page loads per visitor session. I very sincerely say THANK YOU.
Have you guys ever thought about how real life is the Matrix and social media is Zion, us escaping the Matrix and actually sharing our thoughts? Because in real life we live like they do in the Matrix. I know, you wanna say that social media is the Matrix because we're all 'plugged in', but if the universe really is a hologram and our existence is really more like a gaming system, then the social media we have constructed is our Zion because that is how we escape 'real life'. And then you could argue that one of the Zion theories holds that they never really escaped the Matrix, so therefore Zion is still inside the Matrix, and I say ~*perzackly*~.
lol, someone else is like me
Wo, I feel like A. Smith bouncing around in this guy's head.
What's hilarious about the post that last meme links to is that I am the queen of delete, reorganize, and reallocate, and look where it got me with my phone. I tenaciously hang onto lappy because I'm such a hoarder. I need staff. I keep saying this. You don't need principles to hang onto old tech.
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Taking breaks in between stuffs. So much to catch up on.
Still having problems using my arms. Have violently thrown my new phone bouncing and skidding over 10 feet several times over the last few days. My wrists are a little swollen this morning from the ASTYM but still managed to get dishes done without breaking anything.
Catching up on the lastest Strong Bad vid.
Need to keep moving. May as well just get a playlist going.
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You guys don't see me killing it. How's cauliflower and cheese soup with bacon sound? I'm all over it. Yes, from scratch, and it is luxurious. Sorry I can't share.
O.M.G. And dang it, I was hoping that web address at the end was real.
I really really wanna whine about how badly my wrists ache but I won't stop doing chores and keyboarding, so I know I'm not helping.
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I get lost in thoughts while I do chores. Ignore the drop off. I'm having trubbas spelling on twitter in general today.
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Ok, now I'm passing time until a visitor comes to my house.
Fans just leave me breathless sometimes. I'm in awe of other people being able to so eloquently express deep emotion like this.
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I'm excited.
@SFSeriesMovies tweeted today that Jake 2.0 is finally being released on DVD. I dug around real hard for this show on the webs 2-3 years ago and finally found it, then was very surprised to see the condition it arrived in. Guys, I apparently purchased it contraband, seriously. The quality isn't great, but it was better than nothing. I mean, I assume it's contraband because you can see the TV logo on a station in another country, and the credits aren't exactly kosher, plus the cover art is crap. Thought about demanding my money back, but I'm pretty sure that wouldn't have worked. Anyway, I am very excited that it's actually being released now, I. so. love. this. show. Dare we hope for blu-ray...
When I posted that pic to facebook, it tried to tag Jake as Kai from Lexx, lol. I said years ago (so sorry, that post is gone now) that Christopher Gorham would be perfect playing a Brunnen-G, preferably Kai's son or ancestor in a spin-off or prequel. ~~~~~~~~~~~
Just found out about the Paris attack (little over an hour ago), very sad and shocked. I know a fair number of fans both in France and who have traveled to France, especially around Merlin filming. I've been a big France fan for many years (even before Johnny Depp moved there, lol), spent 2 1/2 years on French language and literature studies in college. I'm feeling the Paris attack as personally as I would if it were over here on my side. I am so sorry you guys are making the news like this.
Leaving it here with these vids. Fandom hugs. If you're not a Merlin fan, that's ok, just soak it in. The friends I've made in the Merlin fandom have run a little deeper than others and brought me out of a long social media lassitude. Just today I was contacted privately by a Merlin fan in Malaysia touching base to let me know he's moving to the States soon to finish a medical degree, and it felt really good to be considered that important in his life to touch base like real family. Fandoms are important. I keep saying that fandoms are the most important social process happening in the world because they, more than any political or religious agenda, are uniting people of all colors and genders and creating worldwide families that care deeply for one another. Fandoms are what will save us.
We never see Batman the next morning, when everything hurts and he can barely get coffee and Alfred is in the way fussing about stitches and breakfast through a straw. Thought I'd look around and now I'm snorting coffee in Batman memes. You guys are precious.
This one seems apt for today. I'll take it.
What did I say yesterday? If I'm not talking to you on the twitters, it's probably a good thing. What did I do yesterday? Talked to someone on twitter. What happened? I was asked (told, actually) to tag tweet a review link to an actor because the reviewer was toobusy. How hard did my head spin? It took 45 minutes for me to respond. (:edit: I really did find this humorous. You guys know I love irony.)
Claws in eyeballs, guys. I tried to be gentle. Just saying I should have ignored incoming, like I usually do. People keep thinking I'm nice. Like a twitter service. That doesn't get tips. (:edit: I know I don't put big orange cones and caution signs out when I'm having a rough pain day/week, so I really do need to stay off twitter when I say I'm going to.)
So, the whole Wells thing. I saw all the tweets- Wells is Zoom, Barry is Zoom, Crisco and #DickWells... Y'all know how I feel. (And how I really feel.)
Just in case work sucks today and you need something to do, here you go. You're welcome.
Catching up on a few things. I'm about as cranky this morning as Strong Bad was about Halloween. The David Lee Roth nod is pretty awesome.
I better git movin, if Bunny throws up again she might be coming to see me today. We can have a cranky day together. And if she doesn't wind up here, I'm getting cranky all over some rugs and stuff. I got tons of stuff done yesterday, would be pretty sweet if I could do that again today.
Need help recovering from brain melt? I have discovered The Useless Web. Pinky approves the polite pink button. I have not yet been disappointed.
It's the kind of brain melt that feels like you nuked cheese whiz a little too long during a desperate fit for fake nachos (never do that), and everything is just one big sticky glob that's too hot to eat (seriously, never do that), and suddenly cures into a big hardened disk the second it reaches an edible temperature. Once you've reached that point, nothing on God's green earth seems beneath any kind of standard. Your dog wouldn't touch it, but you eat it anyway, not so it won't be wasted, but because you've sunk to the depths of not being able to face starting over again even though better food is just a few steps and 30 seconds away.
Today has had an unreal forever feel about it. Things kind of turn inside out when you've reached the highest number on the pain scale and realize you were duped by the guy who didn't know about unreal numbers when he drew that chart up.
The world gets weird. Yeah, like this, that "I kill wherever I please" line.
If your loved ones get lucky, that's when your brain says "See ya" and goes out to a party, leaving you to stare blankly and maybe slightly drool a little.
Thankfully...
So now I'm looking for music.
Ok, these are my 3 fave useless websites because I stared at them the longest- fave, second fave, third fave (interactive).
And you're welcome for Benedict crawling around on the floor. I know it helps.
But why? I haven't done anything different. So checking sources for measurment....
And at this point Strong Bad's voice erupted through my brain saying "YOUTUBE? Since when has youtube been part of my klout score? How in the world did it suddenly give me 23% more support?"
Dismiss for a few seconds that I'm pretty much a nobody who does very little on youtube nowadays, and my lifetime views plummeted from awesome to eat dirt when I nearly pulled the plug, and ever since it's been little more than a basic flatline from near extinction. So why is klout suddenly telling me youtube is giving me 23% of my overall klout score ~now~??? Well, I've had playlists going for awhile, right? Sherlock has been a really huge deal with me. I've been getting some politely respectable (laugh if you will) sorta back-from-the-dead playlist numbers ever since last April.
But that doesn't explain why now.
And then I remembered- Oh, yeah, I started a new Lady GaGa playlist just this week. It has this description- Could be anything Lady GaGa related as long as it helps me clean #PinkysHaus
And then I proceeded to hash all manner of despicable fan abuseries in between official VEVO releases. But, but... do playlist views count on klout now? Why yes, yes they do! Youtube seems to be rolling out cool new analytics stuffs. It's still a mess right now...
BUT the analytics are getting even more analytical (you can practically watch your visitors brush their teeth now). I mean, when I can see someone checking my stuff from a game console, yeah. And the little charts are getting groovy. I haven't checked this in awhile, but I'm pretty sure it's kinda new sometime this year. I can choose from six chart types. These are traffic sources in stacked area chart mode. Neat, huh?
And when you mouse over you get metrics.
Not all of the analytics are available for playlists yet, for instance, I went in circles going around 'not available right now' until I finally got into a couple of charts and was then able to kind of back track into what I couldn't direct link to in the analytics menu.
Yeah, what's up with 7-25-15? >=l No playlist embedded into a post that day. Kinda wondering if that's when I put the Khirk playlist into my side bar, but I play that one all the time on my phone while I'm in the shower and I'm not getting device analytics on it yet because it's still web-only mode, probably because they're still working on it, plus the hit dates don't match for that particular playlist.
Well, turns out it's my Sherlock 2 playlist, BING. Absolutely no idea why that day unless I linked it to twitter, but I'm not going to dig that deep on twitter and find out, but guess who is my biggest web visitor for that playlist. Waving to Japan, hi guys.
There were more, but you get the point. Also keep in mind that's web-only.
Ok, anyway, my POINT is that my klout score suddenly bumped up just in the last few days because youtube suddenly jumped into the game, so I think what's happening is youtube is rolling out a new deeper analytics model that feeds your social media analytics hubs like klout. I got an email from sumall recently about a new rollout they're doing, too, so I bet there's a lot of syncing going on in the coding world, finally. I've talked before about the big information gaps between this tracker or that, and how they read differently from google analytics and stuff, but I think, given a little more time, it's all going to start mashing up more sweetly.
And thanks muchos nachos to Benedict Cumberbatch and Lady GaGa for being big dealios because my klout score went up just because I made some playlists. And thanks to Strong Bad on general principal.
This is like the big taco of Haus of GaGa, it's got parodies, Sherlock, Star Trek, DJ mixes, fan smashes, and of course, the Mother Monster herself.
:edit: 9-19-15
Thanx to stat stuff running back through some older posts, I discovered that I made this public playlist on the day of the big spike and linked it the next day in this post that I never shared a link to, but which pretty much confirms that date for me. I didn't realize that playlist was that old. Again, thanx Ben, u rock.
See?!!? I'm not the only one freaking out about sweeping internet changes.
click for cute cartoon "Strong Bad tries to warn Homestar of impending doom. Homestar tries to update his dating profile."
While the rest of the world gets carried away over Grace Jones whining about being the original and the rest of the pop world copying her,
Get it? 'The Blaze' and 'Buzzfeed'
I'm refocusing you back on the ORIGINAL original who has already desperately salvaged backup to youtube and is now figuring out how to keep the original site up and running if future tech tosses a vital delivery code source out the window along the information highway.
"The site is one of the most-visited sites with collections of Flash cartoons on the Internet and is notable for its refusal to sell advertising space (the creators pay for everything through merchandise sales, which includes a line of T-shirts). The owners of the website have turned down offers to make a television series."
My most favoritest t-shirt EVER came from these guys.
This is on the back of the tee.
We've completely worn out several other tees and regret it now, because they've become collector's items.
Anyway, you can join the sheeple taking sides over Grace, or you can join me in learning some great tips on how to become officially unlicensed (or vice versa) with or without fame.
